DearDiary,

so,
my life's amazing with or without you.
well, amazing without you is an overstatement....
bearable is a better word.
But you can't win them all though... right?
I've completely gotten over missing you...
you've become a lesson. A lesson that I'm sure I've
learned many times but STILL haven't seemed to grasp.
I NEED TO LET GO.
But letting go has always been a hard pill for me to swallow.

Every time someone mentions your name... I begin choking
Choking on tears before they even have a chance to touch my cheeks.

All of my thoughts quickly become stained

with old images of your face. Suffocating me in memories

as they slowly reappear. I was pretty sure I'd buried them,

but they find a way to resurface... somehow. I'm trapped,

drowning, begging to be let of a reality that i cannot escape.