February 19, 2010

Blind, Blissful, Falsely Content..
They coexist inside the walls of lies she built,
constructed perfectly from the ground up ...
imperfections only visible if you get a little too close up..
- she's insecure, the jealous type.. causing arguments almost
every night. spiteful he lies, decieves..
their flawless foundation is cracking
; shatters when he decides to leave.
It wasn't that he didnt love her..or that he didnt
care..she leaned on him completely when no one
else was there...he was her crutch.. the end result
was an inevitable suffocation.. she loved him a bit too
much. Tears staining her once beautiful face, leaving
permanent marks of agony that no amount of makeup
can erase. On her knees yelling out prayers that he'd stay
..for another 30 minutes.. an hour.. please just another day
- another day for her to prove to him that
that she can somehow tape together
what's so badly broken- their connection,
another day to prove that
she's still worthy of him - his affection.
He's not convinced..
as he walks out the door she chases after him; neither
her legs or pleas are quick enough to coax him
into coming back inside.. he walks out of her life forever.. leaving her alone with her cries.....

February 6, 2010

keep it com'n

#1. SO I recently got in yet another accident.
My sister's car was rear ended on the 101 and
furthermore totaled. I walked away with a trip to
thee hospital..a concussion... and back sprain. sigh.
#2. My friend and I went to go see "Dear John" yesterday..Sigh, the ending wasn't as good as I'd hoped.. but it was still a great movie. I definitely shed a few tears lol..Nicholas Sparks never seems to disappoint lol.

#3. I've been on like a writing spree lately. Hope you like.

"I spend all my time missing you

-every second of everyday

... recalling everything.. from your voice, to your smile..

to every characteristic present on your face.

the tone of your voice every time you said you'd never leave...

the naive look in my eyes every time i believed.

... the minutes without you that i was convinced I'd never make it through

how heavy my head felt when filled with visions of me and you..

the dreams i had about you coming back every night..

the darkness that consumed me even when surrounded by light.

everyone tells me you've moved on.. I'm trying my best to do the same too...

well at least after a find a reason to keep living now that I'm without you. "

#4. k, bye ^.^*... valentines day is coming up.. rolling my eyes [deeply lol]