blah;

I put distance between us..

hoping it'd come between us... it did..

please forgive me. I choose not to get

attached, I don't think I can take being

again. Please understand you were my

lung.. I stopped breathing when you left

... the first time was bearable, the second

time was a bit too much to handle. Yes,

it's in the past.. BUT I'm still broken,

tenaciously holding the shattered pieces

close. The days are easy to make it,

it's the nights that seem impossible.....

Since you left I haven't slept a full night

through. In vain, I'm anticipating your

heart changing it's mind and guiding us

back to being in love. I don't know why or how you got to me...

It's nothing new.. they always leave.."long term boyfriend"

is a phrase foreign to me.. hoping it'd be better every time

but stupidly taking the same actions there for birthing

the same results.. time and time again. The past is STUCK ..

fixed.. unchangeable.. there's no altering or erasing .. you want

no part of me in the future, so what's left for me to do? time heals

all things but it cannot erase the regrets or the scars that the memories have left...